Right now, you are a bunch of thoughts. You are full of garbage in your mind. At this time, it is not easy to knock you down. It is really difficult to make you realize who you really are. At this moment, even if god comes in front you, you will challenge him. You are full of logic at this moment.
Your guru can help you but it entirely depends upon you whether you want to wake up or not.
Next time you remember your guru, pray him to come and punch hard on your face. Ask him to punch you again and again until your face is completely covered with blood. You are not just blood and flesh anyways, so it is perfectly fine. Otherwise there is no hope. Right now, you are completely asleep, and dreaming shitty stuff.
If you ever got a chance to meet your guru, you are definitely very lucky. But when you see him, don’t seek blessings from him. Don’t try to bow down and touch his feet. It is not going to help you, really. Rather ask him to kick hard right at your chest with his feet. Just like how Ramakrishna kicked swami Vivekananda on his chest to wake him up. Only then, you will realize who you really are. Otherwise, no other ways can still your mind.